At times, I regret applying for single room during my final year. No one to talk to, share my ups & downs, share my/her dinner (heeee) and all-the-other-things-roommates-normally-do. I have finally felt it. Loneliness. Sabishiikute, which I assume some of my friends may have experienced, but never mention about. I got a single room which is not in the same hostel with all other final yearss! T_T
At first I thought I could make new friends with my dearest new neighbours. But after 2 months, it was only a so-good-to-be-true thought. Heh! I did not really have the time to mix around. I know, who am I to say this, but after daily routine to ward and stuffs, I just want to get change and get my blue-coloured pillow!
( Ha! See, if that's what you do everyday, why still need a roommate? )
Well, you need someone to instigate & stimulate you, dasho? Ne? Ne? Encourage each other to do the very best, especially at THAAAT crucial moment when you really need someone to brace you up!
( Ahh.Complaints! Haha who cares. My blog anyways )
Last 2 months, I tried to adjust to this new 'single' status. There were times I became motivated, to do things on my own, not to depend on others. Also, there were times that I got really tensed up. Felt so low.. low.. and deeepperr loww. Gotta say, I did cry. Few times? Less than 5. Was it more? Hmm.. I knew I was mentally and emotionally unstable.
Alhamdulillah, Raya Haji break came and save me from this misery!
I gave this whole situation a real deep thought. I cannot be this waaaay anymore. Nah-ah!
I HAVE to be strong.
This path I take requires me to be as hard as nail!
Huah!
SO.... I bought the return flight ticket few days early despite knowing that I still have my 72 hours off. Why? Need to train myself. Right now, at this point of time, I must be the only God's breathing creature at this side of DM 3 hostel. (Maybe I exaggerate a bit, there's a neko outside my room).
Regret? Keep telling myself, NO!
I will keep myself busy, engaged with things (like what I am doing now?).. not to ever have that thought!
PLUS.
I have a new roommmate this new mid-sem.
Guess who?
MR.MINI-SIZE TV. Huhu payed half-price for it since it's used.
Hope this keeps me less lonely AND less demotivated?
InsyaAllah :D
Conclusion:
1. I become homesick when it's almost 2 months. Gotta go home before the time comes!
2. I have abandoned mama's precious smart coco! Gotta re-start with this healthy drink! :)
